life outside the blog

one's life cannot be contained in a blog. lately, so much has happened. i've had so many spiritual, emotional, mental, intellectual and physical transformations recently that i had to stop blogging. life has been too hectic, frantic and topsy turvy for me to actually sit down and write about it. sigh.

my blog will never catch up to the recent manifestations of my life. so, i'll just begin anew, talking about trivial shit just to pass the time and to have some sporadic, inadequate, incoherent "record" of my boring fucking life.

here is some stuff that has been running round my brain:

brainsurgerygettingolderlosingmymotherwantingtohaveababyneedingfriendssickofwardecoratingmyhouserakingleavestextingmyoldfriendsnegotiatingthepoliticsofanewschoolenjoyingmydogwalkingalotvisitingmyfavoritegraveyardbetrayalloyaltyfearsofflyingchinatripdaysofffromworknothavingenoughsexfoodmoneymountainswarmweatherwantinganewcomputerandanewipodwrinklesonmyfacemuscleachesmypartnergettingtenurepublishinganarticleleavingteachingbehindwantingtobeyoungerlonelinessfamilythejoysofwinereadingmyfavoritemagazineshearinglectureswantingsomenewmusicboredomtearsfearsneedingachangeinmylifegettingoutofarutandothermundanethoughtsandactivitiesyougetthepicture.

jb